Monday, July 12, 2004
Encounter with Ms Chan
i'm scared.she suddenly came up to me n said "wad happened to u nina?" said i had not done as well as she had expected..broke into tears that very moment. yes..i believe i had worked hard..just not hard enough?!can't stop worrying about tt paper..could i really have done tt badly?!?! arghhh! she made it sound as if it'd be hard for me to even pass..shit. yin told me not to think bout it..think bout her instead..hahaha..cant seem to do sooooo!
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.
E. E. Cummings
realised i've been admiring ppl just cos they do much better than me..what does this do?! it only makes me feel worse, more inferior.decided i'm not gonna compete with others. not gonna care whether they do better than me. wadever. i'll do my best for the end yrs. its all up to me...i'm gonna make it.
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